Random Shit

It's very easy to lose focus but sometimes there's a certain order to disarray, to chaos. Heath Ledger's The Joker in The Dark Knight have got it in spades.

I admire that.

Since early last, I've developed this habit trying to focus on the NOW as opposed to the YESTERDAY and the TOMORROW. Those 2 (two) latter motherfuckers will go about their way and not give 2 hot fucks about what I think. But the NOW does.

So I make it all worth while.

I try to be easy on myself.

Let my innate crazy and demented self take control.

So I can have complete control.

Take it easy. Best advice I've had in a long time. I owe it to my girlfriend.

Recession For Desperate Dummies

What the fuck is wrong with people nowadays? These are hard days, I know, but are people really THIS desperate? This *band* from where-the-fuck-ever contacted me in my zine's myspace page and upon reading their message together with the ADD FRIEND request, I immediately denied the motherfuckers.

"we'd like you to listen to our music and give us a feedback?"

WHAT THE FUCK?

I'd rather post something on my blog. Go figure.

The Best Metal Band In The Philippines Today

2008 was a great year. Major bridges were burned to the fucking ground and new relationships blossomed like a perfect dew on a perfect morning. As always music still remains an important part of me and I've been to numerous shows that were extremely fun and mind-blowing.

My favorite Filipino band right now is Nuclear Punishment. They are the best metal band in the Philippines and it's a shame most people are unaware of it. Hailing from Cavite, Nuclear Punishment's brand of metal is hard to describe and comparing them to "other" metal bands would be unfair. To NP, that is.

I have been to 4 Nuclear Punishment shows in 2008 and I have not been disappointed by any of them. Quite the opposite happened, actually. They are a 5-piece monster with 2 guitarists but due to personal reasons and obligations, the band sometimes play as a 4-piece with 1 guitarist shredding people's ears. I saw them as a 5-piece once in 2008. I love Nuclear Punishment on record (they have a demo and a split-CD with 3 other Filipino bands) but I worship them endlessly live.

I will repeat myself: NUCLEAR PUNISHMENT IS THE BEST METAL BAND IN THE PHILIPPINES RIGHT NOW. No matter what you read in glossy Philippine "music" magazines or publications declaring this or that "metal" band as the best, it's batshit. Nuclear Punishment is THE ONLY FILIPINO METAL BAND YOU WANT TO LISTEN TO. Of course there are other Philippine metal bands who are great, but my limbs still go for the mighty Nuclear Punishment.

With that in mind, if you learn about an upcoming Nuclear Punishment show, run, do not walk, to it. It'll change your life.

(I took the NP pictures below while I was at the pit. Great experience. )

- Nuclear Punishment destroyed people at Dayo Bar in Quezon City
in the infantile hours of my birthday! Awesome set. (July 16, 2008)



- Nuclear Punishment killing everyone again at the Dayo Bar in Quezon City
(very late June 23, 2008 evening or very early June 24, 2008 morning,
depends how you look at it...)



- Nuclear Punishment at Mayric's in Manila.
I was with many friends at this show: Garmz from DEPRESS,
Jeffrey from THE SUN INSIDE, and 2 college buddies,
Ronald and Paolo. June 7, 2008

The Idiot Is Leaving

Today is a good day.

Today marks the last day (or was it yesterday? Damn, my brain's fried...) of George Dubya in the most powerful political seat in the USA and quite possibly, in the world.

I have been witness to Dubya's great imbecilic rants, statements, and actions all throughout his 2 terms and if there was one thing I profoundly learned about his tenure as US President, it's this:

NO MATTER HOW DUMB AND FUCKING IGNORANT YOU ARE, AS LONG AS YOU ARE FILTHY RICH AND YOUR DADDY HAS ALL THE RIGHT (read: POWERFUL) CONNECTIONS, YOU CAN BE A PRESIDENT.

The Idiot's run finally ends.

Long Walks And The Absence Of Music

Let me vent first. I haven't listened to any music for the past eleven (11) days and I've become more belligerent because of it. Mental violence and my journal writing has taken a clearly demented path. I'm not used to this shit. I've been listening to music everyday for the past fourteen (14) years and this absence of music this past couple of weeks is making me fucking insane. My stereo and DVD player broke at a precarious time. I badly need and want to listen to Fugazi's Red Medicine album and all I fucking get is disappointment. A cruel aural dry spell.

This shit's going to get fixed next week, though. Come payday-which is Tuesday the 20th-I'll buy a new DVD player. Fuck it. I have my Altec Lansing speakers gathering dust at home and its more than two weeks respite is enough.

I also miss watching my Isis Clearing The Eye DVD, goddamn it.

Enough of the aural dry spell rants.

I've been taking extremely long walks for the past couple of months and it's good that one of my close buddies at work, Henry, is a Long Distance Walker as well. Two (2) weeks ago, we walked from our workplace's building on Ayala Avenue in Makati City all the way to Quiapo in Manila. A grueling affair, I must say but it's also profound. It took us about two (2) hours to complete the said walk and when we separated in Quiapo to go home, I went further; I walked from Quiapo all the way home. Crazy shit, I tell ya. About twenty (20) more before arriving at home, I could've sworn my heart was beating like a crackhead on speed.

Cardiocvascular exercise for the weird.

I've been steadily dating somebody right now and being the strange monogamous hombre that I am, I badly need the exercise. Romance is not for the weak, hopeless and suicidal. You can't possibly love or let alone like someone if you're on Depression Road.

You just can't.

Absence of music = goddamn it, makes me see red. A woman who can shut me up and sit me down and make me content and happy = one of the best feelings in the world.

Now scram and go read some Bukowski.

Nothing Positive, Only Negative

Other than the mighty EYEHATEGOD, I can't think of any band other than FACEDOWNINSHIT who can play this kind of music. This music is not for everybody. It's not art. It's not some artsy shit that was conceived on some drunken debauchery.

This is the face (no pun intended) of extreme music's future. Run, do not walk, toward it.

(AM)

This is getting too much.
I can't stop thinking about you and by the looks of it I won't be able to stop.
If it's a bad thing or a good thing, only time can tell.
I hope the feeling's mutual.